Adulting is hard. Can I just say that? Actually, it has nothing to do with adulting but more to do with how to handle certain situations…which I feel like a child doesn’t really have to do so I am saying “adulting.”
For one, dealing with people is hard. Because half of the time…actually the MAJORITY of the time, they don’t give 1 or 2 flecks about you. People can be so selfish and so determined to fulfil their life that they just don’t care about someone else’s feelings. I have a strong urge to just not mingle or have faith in a lot of people anymore. I wish everyone was as kind and trustworthy as I don’t know…God? I wish people could learn to live up to their words and realise that their actions do have consequences for the people around them sometimes.
Also, talk about a hectic semester of law. And the millions of comtemplations about dropping out of law just because it is hard right now and boy am I milking that one and exaggerating my stresses. But it’s just with school and all those exterior bullshit situations in life….milking it is all I can successfully do. Sad…I know. Pathetic…I am getting to recognise that. Please don’t judge😣.
Not to mention I have been away from blogging for far too long and will probably disappear for a month or so again after this because of exams and just me trying to figure my life out and put back all the broken parts of my soul together 😥😥😥. I am just tired. I really need to stop giving a hoot about people and things that do not help me grow and do not have my best interests at heart.
I need to grow up. Find myself again. Love myself for once. And be happy…because it has been a long while since that has happened. And I know along the way I will fail but I must persist because I have a life to live…dreams to catch and there is nothing better than that!